Very first blog post, wow this is pretty crazy. I swear I have been wanting to blog since I was in middle school. I just never had the courage to share my life with so many people and them see the things I go through. I also thought that it would probably be a lot of work and time, but I finally gave up those expectations. I wanted to start this blog to help others, not to be scared, or nervous about others think of me. So I am trying this. It won’t be perfect, I will probably misspell things, and I will get deep and people might not even read these posts. But even if one person looks at these posts, comes to Jesus, feels a little better about their day, that is really all I could ever ask for. Also who doesn’t want an online diary for everyone to read (;

Anyway, I have been recently going back and forth on what I would even blog about. I didn’t want to be like most people who share about what they eat, their fitness routine or things like that. I mean, they might be good, but I just wanted mine to be so free and about everything. Mostly Jesus and my further discovery about him and my relationship with him, and my daily life and the things I go through. I am a college student, a middle school leader, I work for a homeless shelter, I would hope that I have some interesting stories to share and that my life could be amusing to at least someone!

Well lets get into a topic. New things. Major thing you need to know about me, I have severe anxiety. I swear I have agoraphobia (Fear of places and situations that might cause panic, helplessness, or embarrassment.). I hate bringing attention to myself and being uncomfortable. Funny right? I am making a blog, new, will have people reading about my life and what I do. I am just a ball full of fun. Anywho, I do not really try new things because of my anxiety. I like to know what is going to happen in my life and I just like to plan. I have been pushing myself to go out of my comfort zone, try things that I normally wouldn’t. I can say that I have been pleasantly surprised at how fun it is to let loose and just try things that you normally wouldn’t.

I am a very, very picky eater. If you were to ask my step-dad about me and food he would say “She only likes about 5 things.” He makes fun of me for how picky I am. (I like more than 5 things.) But here is an example, I do not like most fruits. The only fruits I like are apples, bananas, grapes, watermelon, and cantaloupe. Everything else I hate either because the taste is just gross, or the texture is wrong. Well my boyfriend Christopher and I went to this Japanese restaurant where they sell sushi. I do not like sushi because I do not like seafood. (Yes I know there is vegetable sushi, I don’t like that either.) But anyway, I normally get the chicken teriyaki, so as I am waiting for that, Christopher is getting sushi off of this conveyor belt. Christopher loves all foods so he is just trying everything. Well he tells me that I NEED to try something new. So trying to please my boyfriend, I tried a California roll. I actually really enjoyed it! I already had this view in my head that I would hate it, spit it out or just swallow it unwillingly, but no, I really enjoyed this piece of sushi. I was able to step out of myself a little and try something that I did not really think was going to be a good idea, but was surprised to learn that I would very much enjoy it.

That is how we need to be in life. Things will come to us and we will think that they won’t be good, and that we shouldn’t try them out. Whether it is with food, activities, or just situations in life. But the thing is, even if we are scared, nervous, or on edge about the thing that is new, we need to have an open mind and know that even if something bad comes out of it, it will help us grow. I know this is a cliche quote, but I do totally believe in it. “I’d rather have a life full of ‘Oh wells’ than ‘What if’s'”. You would rather have a story to tell, than always wonder what would have happened if you tried the new thing, no matter what it was. So if you have the opportunity to try something new, give it a try. It might suck, being real, but it might also be amazing.

I hope you all have an amazing day tomorrow. Happy Memorial weekend, stay safe and try something new. (;

Caitlyn.

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